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Windpower by Thomas Dolby

Switch off the mind and let the heart decide
who you were meant to be
Flick to remote and let the body glide
There is no enemy !

Etch out a future of your own design
Well tailored to your needs
Then fan the flame and keep the dream alive
Of a continent
A continent a continent a continent a -

There is no enemy !
Switch off the mind and let the heart decide
We're a continent
A continent a continent a continent a -

Shatter the lens and grind it into sand
One measured exposure
Scatter the seed and furrow in our land
The future is roses! Roses!
Switch off the mind and let the heart decide
There is no enemy!
Lift up the hearts of this your only tribe
We're a continent
A continent a continent a continent a
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Get Drunk by Charles Baudelaire

Get Drunk

One should always be drunk. That's the great thing; the only question. Not to feel the horrible burden of Time weighing on your shoulders and bowing you to the earth, you should be drunk without respite.

Drunk with what? With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you please. But get drunk.

And if sometimes you should happen to awake, on the stairs of a palace, on the green grass of a ditch, in the dreary solitude of your own room, and find that your drunkenness is ebbing or has vanished, ask the wind and the wave, ask star, bird, or clock, ask everything that flies, everything that moans, everything that flows, everything that sings, everything that speaks, ask them the time; and the wind, the wave, the star, the bird and the clock will all reply: "It is Time to get drunk! If you are not to be the martyred slaves of Time, be perpetually drunk! With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you please."
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Angel Tech "Polarity Ritual": Dreams and Reality

I read Angel Tech by Antero Alli over the past couple of weeks and he designed a "ritual" that I have been doing lately. In brief, Two circles are consecrated; one is designed as a performance space while the other is a "chill-out" area to gather energy and "cleanse" one's self between parts of the ritual. In the performance space, one finds a word/phrase and a kinetic activity that describes one aspect of a seeming polarity (Good/Evil, Light/Darkness, etc.), then one moves back to the chill-out area to regroup and then returns to perform the other side of the polarity, takes a break again and then combines the two polarities' movements and words in the space until it reaches a sort of natural conclusion . One concludes the ritual by drawing in more energy and then taking notes on the whole procedure.

The whole thing seemed more like a theatre warm-up exercise than a ritual to me at first (Which given Alli's theatrical background, makes a lot of sense), but I decided to give it a shot. What I have found is that this is a kinesthetic way of considering duality and rather than using a dualizing process to Think about them (Rational consciousness), one instead employs a more intuitive method of analyizing these apparent contradictory aspects of life and comes to some very interesting conclusions about them--one processes them AFTER experiencing them, rather than ruminating over them intermiably. It's been very productive work.

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Walking Meditation I

On Sunday, I tried the exercise I described in my last post. I went for a walk around the block. While I was distracted at some moments, there were several times when I had distinct moments of "attention." I don't know if I made it clear in my last post regarding the state of perception which I defined as "Will" or if I was hazy in describing it. I wasn't discussing acts of "concentration" (which are imaginary and futile at best) but "meditation" (attention placed on an object or activity as-it-is). When I had these periods of non-verbal/non-semiotic attention, I could actually see things with a striking clarity (In General Semantics, this is referred to as an experience of the "Silent Level" of consciousness).

In particular, I passed by a tall cactus growing against a fence in front of someone's home. Even though there were small blooms on it my attention to the "plant-as-a-whole" was active and engaged. While I took in the detail of the tree, I did not try to catalog it or judge the "beauty" or "tree-ness" of it in a sort of "Zen/Being-One-With-Nature"-type of way. It was more than just a part of the environment of the neighborhood; it had a presence as a living thing--not just the categories of "Cactus" or "Plant." I was simply conscious of it as a seperate and distinct "being" rather than an object to admire or disdain. And all this without the help of drugs...

This reminded me, once I got back home, of how we "lump" people into categories out of shear laziness (and without a little ego-aggrandizement) when we could actually experince them as unique beings--which is far more fascinating and engaging. I was also reminded of two things which I read recently. One was a statement by Ouspensky that "evil" acts can never be conscious--that if one is truly aware of what one is doing and of the real and distinct and individual presence of one's self and others, then there is no room for malicious behavior (Which reminds me now about Crowley's statement that true will does not interfere with the Will of another). It is only in our blindness to others that we perform "evil" actions. This conclusion seems clearer to me now more than ever.

The other thing that I was reminded of was the skills that General Semantics (GS) provides in reinforcing this perspective. Indexing is one of them (distinguishing between, for example, Muslim 1 (Osama Bin Laden), Muslim 2 (Rumi), Muslim 3 (Malcolm X) as opposed to "Muslims are 'x', 'y' and/or 'z' ") and Dating (Bono [1983] isn't Bono [2010], for example) are just two ways that can help the semiotic, time-binding mind to incorporate a non-Aristotelian perspective into one's line of reasoning. While I am of the belief that acquisition of skills and behavior change does not constitute a change in Being ( a priori structures of the Mind), it is important to recognize these qualities of differnce in order to think and communicate more clearly about others and to understand the world in more non-absolutist terms.

Not bad for a walk around the block...
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Will and Desire

Magick has been defined as "change in conformity to the Will" which, on the surface, seems easy to accomplish. One example of such "magick" that I have read defined brushing one's teeth as one such act. I can see where the example leads on a superficial level--it implies that ANY or maybe EVERY intentional act is both an act of Will and a Magickal act as well. In spite of this, my recent studies and contemplations have changed the nature of what I consider "Will" and ways to act in "Conformity" with this elusive quality of consciousness.

Will and desire are not the same thing. If this were true, then "lust for result" would be an aid to magickal acts rather than a hindrance. The more lust, the better, right? Lust/desire is a tentative line of "Reasoning" that obviously fails to produce an act which can be associated with "Will". Thus, the current focus within Occulture on "Results" is merely the desire to gain material possessions and for the fulfillment of emotional needs. There are better ways to achieve these goals than using magick--climbing the corporate ladder, buying the right clothes and car, etc. are more practical and easier to do than to cast enchantments to hope for the same result.

So, if my "Will" is not to get what I want, then what is it? What form of "Will" can magick/spirituality offer me that a "9 to 5" job can't?

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Reality Tunnels and Me...

It has been a long time since I have posted to this journal. I decided to keep it online in order to express my ideas in light of the paradigm that I formed from reading works by Ouspensky, RAW, D.T. Suzuki, Alan Watts, Colin Wilson and Crowley. My perspective on the Occult has changed and I will be reflecting this by posting things that are more philosophy-oriented rather than ritual-and-magick oriented. I simply question the neuroses that motivate a lot of the goals of "change in accordance with the Will" and don't wish to participate in them. I had an experience which I consider a "Satori" (It was like Sartre's "Nausea" only more fun!) regarding the very foundations of life and feel that an occult audience would be more receptive to the ideas that I have had in light of it, even if it is not strictly magickal in the strictest sense of the word.

Hopefully, you'll be hearing more from me...
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Magic as Perception

I have been doing a lot of thinking about magick in terms of an alteration of perception rather than as a means of altering reality.

"It is not the spoon that bends, but yourself. Just remember that there is no spoon."

I think it is important to understand that the practice of magick or interest in the occult is not an end in itself, but a means by which someone can percieve reality differently and therefore change reality through force of Will alone.

I have had a number of epiphanies lately--genuine moments of contact with the ineffable through simply deciding to look at things in a state of no-mind. These moments as such have provided me with a glimpse of what I consider Reality to be--a permanent and indescribably beautiful experience and not simply a mutable movable feast. The "reality" that we superimpose over this fundamental world of experience is indeed malliable, but Reality itself is not transcendental, but immutable.

I am glad that I have been able to interface with it and am trying to cultivate more moments of "non-intellectual knowledge of Reality." I am still being heavily influenced by Castenada and Gurdjieff at the moment rather than a Ceremonial/Crowley view of things. I will post more about this as my perspective evolves
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A New(er) Paradigm

I took a break from metaphysical matters in order to re-evaluate my approach to Magick and the Occult in general. In the intervening time I studied a lot about Science, Standard Philosophy/Metaphysics and a cybernetic approach to magick which was buried amid several of the books that I already had in my collection (Mainly Phil Hine and Dunn's "Post-Modern Magick" along with "Liber Null" by Carroll) and managed to crank out a children's Steampunk Novel.
As a result, I have come up with a paradigm that I am comfortable exploring--it won't be as "mystical" as some other people's paradigms and in fact it may sort of reduce magick to simple psychology and Ego Magick, but for right now this approach seems valid and logical to me and I will discuss it more in the coming days. I considered a name change for the page and posting a reminder about it, but I think that this site can serve the purposes that I hope to achieve without making a melodramatic statement and starting from scratch.

If I have to boil my approach down to a simple mission statement, then I guess that I would say that Magick is the most efficient, effective means of altering probability for the benefit of the collective. This is a less egotistic approach than I held previously and that I hope fits in with a understanding of personality and civilization that is more clearly perceived than I held in the past.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to posting here and I hope that many of you will find something interesting in what I write...
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Since I am not using my journals as much as I used to, I decided that I would crosspost a few things and see how it goes.

I've been doing a bit of reading about magick and picked up a new book "Portable Darkness: An Aleister Crowley Reader" which compiled his writing into basic categories and followed that up with articles that directly relate to one another. For example, it contains an article about the Book of the Law that explains how the voices should be read [i.e. When Aiwass or Crowley or one of the Godforms he contacted is speaking and to whom the speaker is addressing (Mankind or just Crowley] ) which really helped me to understand what the Book is all about. There are several things that he mentions which started to lead me down some experimental pathways that I consider to be two of the goals of my practice: Open-handed Technique and The development of Free Will through magick.

One of the statements that Crowley makes in regard to the Tree of Life is that language and sentence construction is a kabbalah. Its the interaction of one's self with the Tree that gives it some sort of significance. Combining that with an article I read in the "Disinfo Book of Lies" which talks about viewing life as "Code" (The intelligent Willed shaping of reality through thought, words and the creation of objects) and it made me realize that it could be possible to create one's own Tree of Life based on one's own understanding of "reality" and work with it in such a way that one can achieve magickal states of consciousness (which I believe is the goal of the kabbalah, per Crowley). If anyone wants me to detail what my kabbalah is and how I have been working with it, then I will, otherwise I will just state that it has helped me out tremendously in my practice and look forward to the results that I will achieve through using it.

Through studying Determinism and Free Will, and through the Book of the Law and the general layout of Crowley's practice, I came to a realization about the purpose and nature of Ceremonial Practice. Crowley describes how he one time recited a poem with passion and this served as an incantation that produced a result. In the "Book of the Law", it states: " '44. For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered form the lust of result, is every way perfect.' " What I realized was that Free (Pure) will is achieved through the absence of lust for result and that one way to practice this removal of lust is to perform Ceremonial Magick.

The goal of Ceremonial Magick therefore is not the actual result of the Working in and of itself but the learning a of a skill to carry with you throughout your life. Wanting the result of a stimulus (cause) is what makes us perform certain actions (effect). By taking on a role as the prime cause of one's own action without wanting a result from these actions (effect), the chain of Determinism is broken and Free Will is achieved. The goal of a Magickian therefore becomes Free Will or what could be termed Knowledge and Conversation with the HGA. That means that the HGA is Free Will. So, I am going to change how I approach Workings from now in order to reflect this ultimate goal: Free Will.


That's about it for now...

Cross-posted to davmhl
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The Use of Magick for Internal Change

My original emphasis in the use of magick was for the manipulation and transformation of reality to suit my consciousness (in other words,to get what I wanted or what other people wanted) because I wanted to see if it worked and to use the power inherent in "reality" to my own or my friends' benefit if it was at all possible, but in the short time that I have been practicing magick, I have come to realize that it is more important use this power wisely rather than just to "get what I want."

To get what you desire is great, but what about Desire itself? I am more interested in what motivates Desire and the use of subtlety in order to change reality. Now ritual, myth and magick itself are more symbolic of allowing other states of consciousness to occur to me and to others rather than just to manipulate physical objects or influence events. I know that I can always fall back on getting what I need when I want to (sigils and extended rituals are fine for that), but the individual needs of the magus are secondary to the need to transform the very base of Desire itself. That's where the real magick is.

"Why do I desire certain things and not others and why do I feel the need to alter reality in order to get them?" is the question that I keep asking myself. I am not so much interested in altering "Reality" (like there is only one ;-))as in experiencing realities through the transformation of consciousness itself. By experiencing these alternative realities I hope to transform myself into more mercurial and adaptable character than the rigid and up-tight person that I was before I started practicing magick.

I put into practice something that I whipped up from a book entitled Fear No Evil and combined it with Stanislavsky's "Sense Memory" exercises and Robert Johnson's emphasis on ritual in his book Inner Work that really seems to have had an impact on me. I waited a few months before I decided to post on it because I wanted to see if the changes that it brought about would stand the test of time--and it seems to have done the trick. I'll detail it under a cut for anyone that is interested.

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I feel less neurotic and compulsive and more fluid and responsive to "reality" rather than reflexive and habitual in my responses to the world around me. I act more on instinct generated by circumstance rather than pathology--and people seem to like to be around me more, too. The process took about two weeks, but the results have been going on for about three months now so I thought I would let you in on my "little secret."

I'll save what else has been going on for another time. I hope that everyone is doing well.

D.