It has been a long time since I have posted to this journal. I decided to keep it online in order to express my ideas in light of the paradigm that I formed from reading works by Ouspensky, RAW, D.T. Suzuki, Alan Watts, Colin Wilson and Crowley. My perspective on the Occult has changed and I will be reflecting this by posting things that are more philosophy-oriented rather than ritual-and-magick oriented. I simply question the neuroses that motivate a lot of the goals of "change in accordance with the Will" and don't wish to participate in them. I had an experience which I consider a "Satori" (It was like Sartre's "Nausea" only more fun!) regarding the very foundations of life and feel that an occult audience would be more receptive to the ideas that I have had in light of it, even if it is not strictly magickal in the strictest sense of the word.